post 9 october

justwrite 9 october

when the heat comes on it’s possible that I’ll stop writing the wrong month in the date date line it’s a tv show that I don’t think I’ve ever seen scene stealers are the real dealers of wheels and you can see how I feel since I’m drifting off course of course there’s no direction that I need to turn to turn true wheels and you’ll feel a change you can rearrange those pieces of your own puzzle puzzle over the pieces and their messy edges no straight lines to guide you guiding light to hide you from the dark you can park in the middle of the street and still miss all the traffic traffic lights bright enough but not enough information to save you from getting lost tempest-tossed and all those allusions illusions are the truth you want to see or the water you want to drink but the thing of it is to think of it is easy but to drink from it is not not a lot of that going on on top of the world world wide word games played played out out of time time immemorial and other clichés that students study in foreign languages language is supposed to be the key and here it is to me as well not as a bell to ring out clearly and to create a solution to the problem at hand but the problem in my head instead how to deal with the fallout and sort the trout from the rainbows bowing down to the earth and catching and releasing the same sorts of metaphors I’ve adored for so long with their sweet sounds like suturing the future to the present to the past but in the present it’s lasted nicely and it’s a little dicey to imagine the future in the same trend not quite the end but the deep bends with lots of oxygen in the blood gulping for air and fairing almost well if it’s not farewell but fell swoops are too big one jump at a time one step into the air and think stop yellow light brighter than caretakers of the sunshine movieland out of hand word sprawl I cannot call back anything I’ve said and I wouldn’t instead I will paste them onto the wall and call up something new it’s true I’ve been stewing but what’s brewed up wouldn’t make a tasty cup of anything and it’s scary enough to call your own bluff but to find out it’s true that the use of it all is nonexistent even though you find yourself resistant in the morning it’s time to open the curtain and even though it’s uncertain light and cold that pour in this is what there is to work with this is not a jerk of the chain this is the main lode the stash not to cash in on but not to trash with closed eyes not to surprise yourself into stupor trying to avoid rather something to be buoyed up by and to try to sip slowly not to slip lowly

justwrite 8 october

I am proud to say that the ways and the means have made it to committee we are smitten with distraction we cause attractions where they don’t exist we resist magnetism we reenact tragedy with disdain giving it different names and shouting various doubts into the wind sink sink swim swim and all the sim cards live large charging various denominations dominating the nations and uniting the unbelievers we tie the receivers together and guess what we get we spit back rhymes and in time we imagine ourselves the wrappers of something new we deliver truth as we see it we bit into the center and we imagine caramel of course it’s nothing like but the sun is bright enough to be seen even in a candle if you can handle the extension release yourself from this dimension and eat a full meal watch yourself heal and stop feeling sorry for your story it’s the one you’re writing and you’re daying and nighting it up biting off everything you chew is truly the way it goes and if you’re so disposed you should write a letter you should send it to yourself to see if you feel better by the time it’s received is it healthy or diseased to look only in the mirror for days at a time are you fine yet can you get over yourself and this is a message sent internally there’s no spurning any other angle there’s no dying card played in a large hand scattered across a different land I will never love that country I will never speak that tongue I will have hung out to dry any connections that try to make themselves there but it’s fair enough to back off you might scoff at the chance you’re being offered but it’s the only one that’s mine to take if you want to break that cake in such a way it’s hard to put together again but in the end it’s still all there is to eat and to meet defeat with runaway feet can’t get you anywhere and it’s a foursquare meal deal that isn’t always happy doesn’t always come with a toy won’t always be enjoyed but everybody’s got to eat and the sun will keep doing that thing so why not have bought in notice in the passive tense it’s easier but the active voice needs a lot more force and energy and it’s not always going to be mustered or mastered thatway