29 november

this is the part where it’s easier and I can say whatever I want where I haunt the letters without numbers where I hum without flubbing but even now I slow while knowing that ought to be punctuating there’s waiting when there ought to be going and I’m slowing further worrying whether you’re wondering wherefore there’s going to be a comma or better yet a period and all those other entries might have spoiled you but we’re boiling through and spilling over line after line and you’ll see that it’s fine to keep continuing because this is what we do we humans we people and we invent and we revent without repenting sometimes we just make up words with absurd herds of meaning flocking along behind clocking along the time the speed of swallows choking on their coconuts at the manhandling of allusions and the truth in confusion is a truth half-spilled and I’m hardly thrilled to have to report that there’s nothing to say more on the subject though that’s not for me to tell you and I’ll spell you a while if you want to be lettered I’ll tell you a trial if you want to be bettered than a common criminal and in the middle full and easy with contentment you can stuff your sack with battle axes and other sorts of nonsense the way we mention ourselves in casual conversation to our betters and worsers we have these ideas we have these opinions but when do we become these people we think we are when is it possible I’ll be an author and not a writer is this an igniting sort of point to light a spark under me or is it too late like I ought to go to bed not like oh no the end is near sort of late just wait I’m thinking about something here and it’s important well this is what happens when I switch back from straight prose with punctuation and everything and from free verse in the other direction it’s okay but man this is going to be a challenge my fingers are stiff with punctuality and the rigor of correction the flow is not to be had here and the certainty is basically that while I am pondering a semi-colon I am not sure what’s to be meant