justwrite 14 january

having lost a month I shuffle forward the date and backward the later fog logs another last lap through the slaphappy parking lot we have dots that ought to be crossed and teeth that are too rarely flossed with the reminders of sidewinders the symphony of another alleyway that’s a film I saw that’s a remainder in the ones’ column I wanted to solve them but still they kept adding up let’s start again let’s depart again in peace in pieces we are putting back together the reeses and the peanut butter cupped in chocolate hands an in-demand sweet delight the dark of night cannot be brightened cannot be heightened except to be darkened we’re harkening to logic but it’s still sort of faint we’ve filed our complaints but the restraints are still in place there’s too much to think about and the doubts ride high on wings of anxious trainwrecks collecting recycling along the tracks and cracking jokes yanking ropes and generally wreaking havoc there’s a clamor and whatever’s the matter has got to wait because it’s one at a time in this holding line this stalling’s fine for now but someday in the not so distance the resistance will fade away and I’ll be able to say exactly what you mean to hear and it’s mean to steer expectations and then let go of the wheel but you gotta roll how you feel and that’s the only real deal