1 september

the feeling of pulling away, apart - end of vacation, return to the other - no comfort in the walking away, nothing to look forward to - leaving behind the ones who care - what else to hope for? unconditional, early wakeup, affirming and endearing - the guts of what matters - tears in the bathroom brushed back, disgust at the unfindable confirmation code - all i can put in is my name - what matters - who i am - wishing i was asleep - the voices of people i love drifting in and out of range in another room - how memories are made - spinning them out and reeling them back before the chance to let go - warm is cooled too fast, return to dark and tightclosed - how much can we carry along? how much can we keep warkindled, close enough to waken safe - knowing i am loved -