6 march

feeling raw wide open leaves one susceptible to a torrent of potential suggestions both minor and life-altering, some given and some - most - absorbed from assorted clues and conjectured coincidences -- i should become a massage therapist -- i will write a book in which a character tries on different jobs to figure out how to help people -- i will become a craft sensation -- i will reinvent postcards -- i will get more shoes -- i will get rid of everything i own -- i am ready to leave the country i will get a dog i should train for a marathon i will take regular yoga classes again i will take a few days off thursday friday monday and go on a writing retreat alone with no phone or internet somewhere in the mountains or maybe somewhere i have never been no associations to burn off or look past somewhere where only the static crackles and none of the gettingpast rushingby to turn away from too busy to inventing the new to notie --