17 january

and writing the date i remember. this day.
so much otherwise since then.
but even then
terror in joy in unexpected force: will you?
no other answer but surprise
must be replaced by something in the overpowered space
charged with expectation
no time for why and how but
are you kidding me? escapes
instead: kidding myself
yes yes of course yes
no day but couldbe
a chance for better a gamble for whynot
a day off, a day on
shuffle years away