26 may

will have to write that book before i can read it -- meet the pages in stages and taste them before turning -- always the reflection instead of action -- need more focus instead of distraction: what will happen next and when will all the characters change, rearrange their placement to the basement of memory or anyway faraway to not come back another day although rain usually does and the clouds we find above are lovelier than those within (we sink and swim in our own spools twistturn tangling through the swoon that is a lifetime)