7 april

someone needs to walk away
otherwise we'll still be
here
stuck
we can't leave together
or what would that mean
staying seems like stalling
but nowhere else to go
no steps forward back me up
you have no use for useful
sense of disappointment
at inevitable ending
knowing there are
no more pages
stages we can't scene

6 april

it's your jaw she said
i'm sure you've been told before
the alignment is off
and that's one of the reasons

i think i said
they were all just waiting
for you to tell me

which seems to me
to be a bit
off itself

but maybe it explains
not so much a different drummer but
something else
there must be
a reason why

all the stars align
new and assorted constellations
named on the spot or otherwise
no one calls them
a bit off
just charts a new course of study
listens to a different frequency
more often
lets the storms fade out

5 april

tune into the right channels
and keep some doors closed

exposed to the elements
anything can change
rearrange the tic tacks to
toe the line and predefine
the dotted spots to see
what's not outlined clearly enough
to bluff the viewers
see through your own lenses
and pretenses and then clear
the decks as we all fall
down

someone needs to speed
up the past so we get
more present

4 april

as if i could
just keep driving
although
what's stopping me?

watch clock calendar
blur disappointment
priorities:
we seize days and raise stakes
to camp elsewhere

care for score
or cash
or more?
what does
the addition
total?

i'll hold out hands
but only to the sky
there's no route
to where i'm going
no one else to follow

open wide ahead

hold the calls and all toed lines
define yourself instead alone
this new vocabulary is my own

3 april

generally
i've noticed
together
is what we might call
pleasant
if we were
short of
vocabulary
or metaphor
or timid of
saying more

    if you say it first
    let me know

but it takes
a step
and more
and still
it seems
a question

2 april

today the yoga teacher
all in white to match his hair and signify
MORE or DIFFERENT -- APART/ABOVE
announced he was thinking
of getting a twitter account

slipped into the breaths
between poses
as if we were to
what?
offer advice?

there was
some laughter
but it was not clear
if we were to respond
or if he was just
trying out some material

last week
he spent the first breathing moments
discussing his recent trip
   not bad
with emphasis on time in traffic
   not great

then the discussion stretched
to 95 or other possible routes
between northern virginia and southern florida

i'm the new one here
did i take the right road?

today he told me:
i'm just telling you
because you don't know

not the right road to take
   no

instantly sure i would not return

but then
maybe
i should just tell him
because
he doesn't know

1 april

as if a fistfight in my dreams
and i am knocked out
and dragged along
   but in the meantime
there are errands and
no comparing these jarring jams --
scramble no picnics and egg no pans:
we scan our meter for sweeter rhythm
times to swim in
with rhyme of a season
lines that build shapes --
escape from the page
turn key to the next