justwrite 11 june

if i shrug off sound and slither into a meaning devoid of confusion what illusions will be lost what senses will be tossed beyond the typical five and can we all thrive together and on without some pretending neverending circumstance to trance you out to doubt your meaning leaning hard on the line breaks when they appear here

and there unaware of situational anxiety propogated by such hesitated-over syllables i am wondering about journals about dreams how scenes seem to be sensitized digified my dishes are clean if you're wondering but all i will do is eat all i will walk on is feet and to be more specific my own with bare nails stalled out in hibernation there is another situation i have no boxes i have too many clocks and not enough time

if i work and work out and flout sleeping in will i grown thin in sense will i be pleased will i feel ill at ease into a race there is no point in winning will i grin steadily in a painted style where have all the sweaters gone and why is the crocodile so pleased

justwrite 10 june delayo post

in the dream kelli and i are making copies right before school the bell but instead familiar secretary sandy announcement instead attention this is not a joke the threat level has been raised from yellow to blue please report to the auditorium for more instructions and information these are our school colors this is unprecedented the color has never been this high and down along with everyone we sit seen from above two diamonds of folding chairs students in front staff second listening to announcing due to an incident of international terrorism in london two men broke into the space agency something etc and destroyed controls of a distant space ship and as a result one hundred thousand people will die and now a video presentation on how the human body dies from exposure because this is what will happen to them and as we know the body contains three kinds of plastic and the sideways cut human body model shows a crinkly red plastic straw trachea

nearly too much unwinding downtiming no one can relax on this track keeping track taking back days left replacing them with what's next trying to trip up into the right reaction a better answer understandable not reprimandable i am talking about not talking and the wondering about humid space in the human race toward whatever through the lightning with no lightening of loads just roads to travel and woods yellow or dark and deep just too steep to swim in alone i would like to mention this burn on my left knuckle of unlikely describability i will not blame the toaster i will coast through quickly i will try to wipe away the sullen sodden expression heavy in the dark and i will seek the pillow

justwrite 9 june

i should have started writing this earlier back when maybe and what if and application was a destination instead of a backthen but now i am and now i am telling and the felling of these memories into pages like a forest blocking and protecting but there is nothing secret there are smoke rings and there are messages like paths between then and now and how i got here and where i am going which is another there let me just say that today i am feeling good i had breakfast there was a cookie in this day and also a huge storm that was only outside there was some cleaningup and only a little of it was inside i went to a meeting i thought about saying goodbye i said i will see you this summer i decided to write on the board to pretend to have a role there was no goal for me but to keep being and to smile and to talk about ideas on how to be a leader but there was nowhere for me to lead and who would want to follow i was on the phone i was talking again i was searching for birch beer she told me to write and i said yes i write and there were other thoughts and i bought some yogurt i want to wonder how to put it together i thought about a separate notebook for the honesty the straightforward but there is also the transparent emotion in everywhere else let me think about doubt until i am sure and i will start starting before it is too close to the end and i can't begin right

justwrite 8 june

head breaks open
fools rush in
canoes on the way out
stored up in mothballs
calling all the kettles
the cannons on the fritz
always with the chicken pox
an empty mall hall
where have all the bargains gone
shop alone along again
all the walls
stalling out like cow lips

justwrite 7 june

let us discuss the adoption of options
i have feathers in my cap
there is chapstick in the car door
it's stuck
the truck costs the same as a boat
in hot weather
she took landing lessons
no urge otherwise
let's be safe
let's eat deviled eggs
we spend so much time being good
i will close my mouth
but only when i chew
the flies have it the dangs nab it
i have baked this cake to take it
out for dinner
acclimating the dogs
a half-pipe full of skateboard dreams
honeydew miscellany
i am just making things up
there are cups full of diet
i have tried it
all with ice
unchiseled
lazy sensibility
the quality here is very clear
i will look for balloons i will sun the moon
there are toads in every garage
a smile in the woods and the corners on deck
the best guess at what's next
lingering in the spoon waiting for the tongue

justwrite 6 june

poster coasts like a boast made in the dark with the sharks you know what i mean and you've seen what i scream in the dark so there are no guesses to stress there are no tests to pass backward into the future the situation is somewhat grim but the lawntrimming needs to be done before your allowance is allowed the shadows shaved off by the raving crowds are too loud to be acknowledged in public the repugnant characteristics of closeheld smothering let me tell you i will look out for those i will be indisposed to making resolutions in general but the solution as i see it is to grease those wheels and steal the deals with sealed feelings we will never speak of this again let us talk instead of chinese food and the great pains to remain crunchy like cashews in the face of sauce and the grasshopper advice is to play nice with the grass and to sing too fast forward into motion to allow the sun to salute in return hello i will burn you in the nicest possible way and to say otherwise would be to disguise the truth an uncouth invitation to disease but the please and the thankyou and the money charged to those living large in search of death is a second breath away from guessing sense but the dollars always tell the truth

justwrite 5 june

let me just tell you something to say nothing of anything
there are things i'd rather have unseen or unsaid
i have a shovel and i am digging and digging a whole hole
big enough for my face and feet
i am going very quickly and the race is to the most awkward
i will apologize for anxiety
i will digress from depression and return again
let us discuss cake instead
let us eat ourselves into an ice cream dream
i have written a poem with such a title
such a title! i said at the time and now i repeat it
such a title!
i am interested in the forthcoming days
i have paid the rent but just vaguely
lost in the wind in the rain of the dark of postal workers' dreams
i would like to vacuum first
if i am slowing you down please say so
i am asking too much and telling too much
munching on something unnecessary this is the way
let's split a deserted island
i will slide on the bananas and you can go